Moving Along

[The following entry was originally posted on Freedom Trek on January 7, 2012. Shortly thereafter, I put this blog to private. In May, 2012, I put the blog public again and I've updated some of the information (including links) to this blog entry.]
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Partly as a result of the online public smearing in August and September, 2011, by my ex-cult-recovery therapist, I have taken the ‘freedom trek’ story (ie: “chapters”) off public access and have intentions to continue the story on another blog in which I will use pseudonyms. The chapters that were posted publicly on Freedom Trek have been put in draft, no longer accessible to public view.

I question myself when I have published memoir entries here and elsewhere. Whose names do I make pseudonyms? Whose names do I reveal? I waiver between the innocent and the guilty (or perceived as such), between public and private figures. In the end, I don’t really have a formula for my decision. (In the case of my ex-therapist I went public partly due to his then public solicitations for money and people and with knowledge that his manipulative behavior was a pattern.)

Thanks to any readers and commentors who initially had an interest in this blog. All the comments are saved in the private draft files.

To life!

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Regarding my ex-therapist John M. Knapp, LMSW (aka Johnny Profane-Johnmknapp) (link)

Beginning in March, 2011,(link) I came forward, on my other blog, toss & ripple (link), publicly naming my ex-therapist, on whom I filed a formal complaint (link) with his state board in the latter part of 2010, and sharing some of my experiences surrounding my relationships with my ex-therapist. Going public with that information was a hard decision for me. It also cost me in regard to my already questionable reputation among some of the ex/anti-cult crowd.

In August and September, 2011, my ex-therapist publicly lied about me and others with allegations and accusations (link) that are totally false. My ex-therapist had refused to cooperate with the state investigator and in latter August, 2011, publicly declared that state investigators are “very dangerous people.” Shortly thereafter, my ex-therapist fled the state (with no forwarding address) in which he is licensed and where he was being investigated.

The investigation is complete but the outcome of the state’s official prosecution is still in process.

[Note regarding my coming forward about my ex-therapist: I'm now glad I came forward. I've received information privately from others who experienced similar as I in their relationships with the therapist. (At least one other ex-client was harmed in a similar manner as I.) That information has validated that coming forward was the right thing to do...even if I did it clumsily. I don't know if there would have been a graceful way for me to come forward.]

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Interlude // On Hold

Well, I thought that after the New Year I was going to keep up with my chapters on this blog, writing 3 to 4 per month. Alas, that hasn’t transpired.

Below is a short, generic explanation.

In the spring of 2010, I became involved with a volunteer project. Part of my time that I would have usually been writing was put toward helping develop that project.

The project took an odd turn at the end of July, 2010 – a turn I never imagined would have happened. Due to those events, which for me were psychologically and emotionally traumatic, I chose to resign from the project.

The outcome of the events and its related complexities are still being ferreted through. I was advised in September, 2010, that it may take a year before the situation is resolved, if it ever gets resolved. It may take two before I am able to move through and integrate the events.

The situation (see April 27th update below) has been trying, to say the least. I have sought and am still receiving professional help due to the consequences (among other things) regarding the situation.

I have written about the events, but most of those pieces are currently private. At some point, they may become public. (See ** below.)

Thus, it remains to be seen how many entries of Freedom Trek I’ll get written this year. They will simply appear when they appear.

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April 27, 2011 Update:
I have made a bit of the situation public here.

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**I brought forth most of the private writings in June and July, 2011, on toss & ripple.